I Still Miss Her And My Eyes Ushers A Bundle Of Tears

I never thought the day would come and she will disappear from my life ever just like that. I miss her because I loved her truly. Offcourse  she must have her own reasons for leaving me distorted. But the day she disappeared like I mean nothing to her but more than priced nut. The promises and the words she gave me had portrait her pure, unadulterated, unblended angelic love which was impeccable to my heart, but it was wrong and turned out to be biggest myth of my life. How naively she said that she wasn't love to me , but she was my heart. It shouldn't be worthy to put it out because she is already gone. My eyes are shading blood but tears in her memories. Memories like million times Every day. When I go to bed I feel like she is out there somewhere missing me the way I do.

When I wake up everyday I miss a video chat what used to bring me joy of heaven. Which used to bring inspiration to live for the day. when I used to watch her innocent smile on her face I used to feel like i had lived my life.

 Even if she is not here with me anymore ,Still I have her fragrance with me. I have her memories which never gonna die till the very last moments of me. In last couple of months I have tried number of ways to put her out of my head but I failed miserably. I drank everyday

So I could no longer be in my senses. Because I knew if I be in my senses I do nothing but miss her like mad dog. I miss her like I have lost my life without her. Ever since she is gone I wonder would she miss me The way I do? I guess no. Otherwise I would have received her call or Fucking one text from her. The last question I would wanted to ask her is, what was my mistake in this? So she had no choice but just leave and be gone like she never gonna come back.

 avarice of her memories in my brain is never gonna die. Because I love her truly. In my life I never dreamt of a girl except her. She is the only girl I had dream about. I do cry when I miss her what else I could offer to do. But let me tell you the interesting thing that I can't even tell people around me, I am crying because I miss her.

 The last word she said to me was that you can't get anything from me. you and me over. we are over. At first I couldn't believe, it made me feel like there is no ground underneath. was it the same girl who gave me word that she will never leave me alone. Because I am alone and crying for her to be back and hug me the way she used to. Her hug was solution for all my problems. But she is no more in my life. I still miss her and my eyes bring me tears. Not a single day passed without flooding my eyes with tear. I heard a stories about girls moving on so quickly. Even I heard stories about love being calculated. I could relate you to the heard stories now. Boys like me I can't just fucking move on. Because  I loved something in my life and that was just you. It's hard to believe, it's hard to mould, it's hard to love someone now. Cause the love I had in my life I just gave it all to you.  And There is none left for others.

- Nagesh Gaikwad